Friday, March 30, 2007

The gates of control

I wanted to THANK the hell out of everyone for their advice and help.
We ran out last night and bought a gate for Syd's door.
The SECOND we put it up, she was a new person. It's like it gave her some control....it told her that we were on her side. She hasn't screamed at her brothers once. She has run and said, "no little buddy" slamming the gate closed in their faces, but hey....it's all good.
The boys haven't protested as much as I thought they would either. When she used to close the door, they would sit in front of her door and cry. Now they look through the bars and talk about things :) it's actually quite funny.

We are taking the advice of the Binky Fairy box idea. We are constructing a box today and I will again give Sydney the control of putting her binky's in the box for the Binky Fairy to take. I'm going to let it be her choice.
Of course in 2 years I will take the choice away from her :) ha ha
I think it's going to work like a charm. Oh no I din't just say that. Now I've jinxed the whole damn plan.

I also ordered, (J ordered from Amazon) the book recommended by Mommy, mama and cubs. 1-2-3 Magic.
I'm going to be a well oiled machine !

My boys are recovering from RSV, all that we are left with is runny noses and the occasional cough. Cam seems to be clear of it all together.
SO WHAT IS THEIR PROBLEMS ? They have cried at me for a week. Mommy is down to her last 2 little pink pills and all I think about is going in my garage and lighting up a cigarette. Now I don't smoke, so that wouldn't be a good habit to start up (again:) hee hee
My life this week has been utter hell and the only thing getting me through it are the occasional smiles and laughs from my children, and oh yes, the little pink pills.

So today my mom called and offered to take the kids tonight so that me and J could go to dinner. (she has talked to me all week and has heard the hell I live with day in and day out) My mom NEVER offers to do things like this ! I can't believe it !
In talking to her we decided to go to her house for dinner and play cards. Which involves eating loads of sweets and letting papa entertain the little ones.
At least I will get out of the house.
My weekend will continue like this; tomorrow I will take the kids on and let Jan straighten the yard up. We get to go to dinner with our friends tomorrow night (MARGARITAS, HERE I COME)....and Sunday is my scrapbooking day. An entire day devoted to JUST scrapbooking pages (probably 6...I'm not very fast) of my cute little babies.

There is this little light shining on me today. It's hitting me just below my eyes and I see a glimpse of relaxation and adult conversation. WOO HOO !

Singing ever so softly as to not wake Sydney..."this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine.....this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine...this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine...let it shine, let it shine, let it shine."

Alright....Who's stinky ?

I bless each and every one of you with the same little light this weekend.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Regression and Binky's..HELP ?

We are now hitting the regression that happens when siblings are born.
Sydney has been GREAT since the birth of her brothers. She's helped, loved on them, and flourished and grown. Just recently however, just before her 3rd birthday....she started showing signs of setback.
For instance; her binky. She has been a binky baby and thankfully so since she was tiny. Syd was a very 'challenging' baby. Sometimes the only thing to do was to plug her up. There is a critical time and I don't know when it happens, but she started to use the binky to self-sooth. PERFECT. Tantrums were easily remedied, sleep time was a piece of cake, the binky was not a bad thing in our house.
As Syd approached three we had talked about only having the binky at bed time. There were a lot of reminders but for the most part things were moving a long great. Then I'm not sure what happened but the binky and the aggression towards the boys and the pretending to be a baby all started.
Her binky is no longer a separate entity. Sydney prides herself in being able to chew her morning vitamin with her binky in her mouth. She's NEVER without it in the house.
Now, we have discussed it and know that she will not be taking the binky to kindergarten, and she doesn't take it out of the house or when friends are over.
The binky does serve a purpose though. It does still allow her to sooth herself in troubled times. It helps her to sleep. It is very much a big part of her and to take it away (cut the tips, cold turkey, gradually, or any other way) just seems too great a task. Does anyone have a binky story that might help. I mean, someone with a child who LOVED their binky who couldn't go without the binky.

The aggression is also interesting but understandable. They are mobile now and getting in to her stuff. It has now become HER stuff. I think because Cam was the first to move around and is able to strong arm her, she takes most of her aggression out on him. She will push him, yell at him, pull him off of things. Spencer she still shows affection to a lot of the time, and seems to be more understanding with him...but will yell at him if he's playing with something that she wants.
I don't know how to handle this. Do I punish her for her behavior....because that seems to be making the situation worse. She then holds her punishment against the boys. I've tried to explain that they are babies and don't understand. That doesn't help.

Sydney has become the baby "I'm da babay".
She has gone as far as sucking on the middle of my chest (up by my collar bone) and when I ask her what she's doing, as she makes smacking noises, she says, "I'm the baby, I'm eating" Funny, since I haven't breast fed the boys for the last 2 months.
She will put her arms up for me to pick her up and tells me she can't walk.

I feel bad, the boys have been sick and are getting a lot of attention, which is probably a large part of the problem.
I just want some balance. I want them to grow up and be friends....something me and my brothers didn't have. I want them to play together and get along.
I want to have this strong family bond that I see other families with.
I want them to feel like they have equal love and time from me.

I need help and answers.

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It comes and it goes ! This is the picture of my backyard this morning !
As you'll notice the snow is GONE ! It's supposed to be back up to 65 degrees by Sunday. :) YAHOOOOO !

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

So many random pictures, so little time !


Here is a picture of our newest friends.
Little Miss Emma and the ever so handsome Jake.
They are 1/2 siblings to both my kids and Mama, mommy, and cubs.
They were born on March 19th and both weighed 5lbs 8oz.
They are good sleepers and eaters thus far.
We wish them the best of luck !




I am FULL of song today ! Full of something.

Let it snow, let is snow, let it.....uuuurch....what the.... ??

The view from my back window this morning at 8 am. AND IT'S STILL COMING DOWN !
My tulips are coming up for the love of all that's holy. It was 70 degrees just a few short days ago.
Oh Mr. Sun, Sun, Mr. Golden Sun...please shine down on meeee !




Hoppity, Hop, Hop, Hoppity, Hop, Hop, Easter's on it's way.

The kids went to see the Easter Bunny.
Just last year, Sydney didn't want anything to do with the guy. This year she ran back from purchasing pictures to give him an extra big hug.



My little Picasso !!

I have to say, I am TOTALLY impressed with this picture.
You can clearly see that it's Mr. Noodle
and his wife and baby. :)
...and apparently the baby has a parasol, or it's possibly one of those little umbrellas from the cocktail Mrs. Noodle just enjoyed at dinner. Who knew Mrs. Noodle also has the patches of hair on the sides of her head like Mr. Noodle. (by the way...those are really their eyes)
(If'n you don't know who Mr. Noodle is, you need to catch up on Sesame Street and Elmo's world)
What's really funny is this could be her interpretation of me, J and baby Syd :) Apparently what she sees in the morning.
Syd was just drawing away, and when I walked over to clean up the table...WHAM !....it hit me in the face like a heat wave in Chicago.
She's a natural. Next thing you know we will be setting up shop in some gallery, selling her panting on Ellen's show. :)


Note : When I asked Syd what the picture above was....she told me it was a picture of the Easter bunny....(so those aren't eyes, they are his ears) Sydney, holding Spencer and the parasol (or as I thought it to be) was going to be Cameron but she quit drawing at that point.
We are titling it Easter parade and the bidding starts at $three-fity :)

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Kiddie Kandids


Here is my lovely daughter ! Isn't she sweet.
I have to rant about Kiddie
F$%^ing Kandids for a second.
Since the birth of my daughter 3 long years ago, I have supported these imbeciles.
You are stuck going there for the convenience, quick pictures, and stupid girls who don't get paid enough to say "getter, getter, getter!" in some high pitched voice only dogs can hear. To show that kind of enthusiasm day in and day out is exhausting to even think about.
The mall by my house has always had the best representatives of the Kiddie Kandid franchise. They were always well groomed, organized, and overly excited to work hours on end with each child for that PERFECT smile.
I guess the day in day out part wears the best of the best down to a nub, because the turn over rate at our mall now goes as fast as the Cinnamon bites at pretzel maker (God, who runs out of those)!
The girls SUCK ! Today the lady was posing Syd in these juvenile poses...HELLO...she is 3 after all. Seriously, both hands held in prayer position up by her left cheek....that's so last year.
I didn't like butting in, ya right, and told the lady (in my nicest, I've been waiting 3 hours and the curl is out of my daughters hair and we are all tired, and now hungry, voice) "maybe we could try an older pose?"
She says to me, "what were you thinking"
I'm thinking, "You should be better at your f$%^ing job, you should already know how to pose my daughter, you should be the one with all of the ideas, YOU'RE THE ONE THAT WORKS HERE!" I started sizing her up, cause I know I could take her.
I said, "I don't know, just something older." glancing around at all of these blown up images of the perfect pictures with smiling children, hair perfect, cloths still ironed and pressed, hung in a superior way that can never again be achieved or duplicated no matter how many hours you bribe and beg your kids to just sit still for ONE more picture and we can ride the carousal. Please, please, pretty please...hung all over the store.
"How about one on her tummy?" I suggest, as the girl is still looking at me with a glazed over, I'm going to add to the turn over rate soon, look in her eyes...and Sydney is now playing behind the black curtain.
After 4 hours. 4 HOURS 2 1/2 hrs of waiting and 30 minutes of picture time, and then waiting and choosing and then paying, printing and leaving...we were able to capture 1 picture that we were happy with.
I did make a montage with another picture that I added above. I wasn't going to pay for it though :)
We picked this pose.

I always say I hate it there....and that we will never go back.....but of course my boys are 9 months next month and as that is one of their 3-6-9-12 that we get....we will be back.
The damn convenience of not having an appointment. That stupid colorful
f%^king duster stick that they jab into their faces and somehow hypnotize them with.
And being able to view, purchase and receive your pictures in 4 hours just has it's way of getting me back time after time. Maybe next time they will have those Cinnamon bites and it will all be worth it.

How Impressive

I have to say how impressed I am, on a multitude of levels.
First of all.....everyone guessed. I needed to make the rules harder or something.
Second, several people, ok all but 3 of you, I had no idea would read this blog.
I feel warm and tingly....not the way that infertile pediatricians been feeling warm and tingly, but nonetheless :)
Here are the answers.

#1 is Take a Walk on the Childside Jennifer has her hands full with 2 lively toddlers, one of whom has autism.
I don't know how she handles some of the challenges she's faced with. How are you and your wife ?

#2 is Raz-ma-taz 2 moms with a darling little 1 year old girl Ryan. I'm happy to hear that she likes the pool this year.

#3 is 3 dogs,2 moms,1 baby, she didn't guess or comment.....we are SUPER good friends ! :) Ok, really, they are in Park City this weekend celebrating Shelly's birthday. They will soon celebrate the birth day of their beautiful little girl Riley....can't wait !

#4 is Proud Prowser, 1 darling 3 year old little boy Cam. WE WILL HAVE A PLAY DATE, WE WILL HAVE A PLAY DATE !

#5 is, Twins and a Toddler,when I wonder if we will make it another day/6 months, I just read this blog. Very glad to have found you guys.

#6 is, Uncommon Nonsense,didn't make it around to play my game. I hope she comes back around....she's one of the 3 that always comment. :)

#7 is, Camerons Corner, my book writing friend. My daytime soap on a blog. My addiction. WHERE'S PART 16 !

#8 is, Mommy, Mama and Cubs, my award winning thinking blog. They have promised to open up their silent world of raising kids to us. YEAH !

#9 is, 2 Girls in Love, they have a beautiful new baby girl and are able to blog about some of the early pleasures and difficulties that come along with parenthood.

#10 is, Arcane Matters, she is currently pregnant and glowing with twin girls. I love to read about her fears and excitement for what's to come....because unlike most things...I do know !

#11 is, Lois & Holly's baby story, VERY cute little baby boy. I hope the bodily functions work themselves out.

#12 is, Uterus x2 and Infertile Pediatrician, I'm so excited for these 2....finally after MUCH trying and loss, they are pregnant (possibly with twins). I am going to continue to lurk on this blog everyday, until they start commenting on mine. Tit for Tat ! :) Hey, fair is fair.

#13 is, 2 Moms-It can be done !, they are pregnant and have gone through heart attack and diabetes. (no shit) They don't read me, but I'm going to lurk on their blog. You should go on and look through pictures on their flickr of their house. I want one. I just want the kitchen.

The end ! This has been really fun. When you don't have anything to blog about this is a little something to fill space and it's fun :)
Let the games begin !

Friday, March 23, 2007

Recognize your blog

I'm playing the game, recognize your blog.
Read below and tell me who you think you are !
The three of you that read my blog should guess yours right off :)
I'm going to say really shitty things about anyone who doesn't read my blog, because I can...and you won't read it any way and because it will make things a little more dramatic. :) just kidding.

1- You have your hands full. I always look forward to new posts, although you don't update very much and I wish you would. I love reading what you have to say and haven't heard about how you and your partner are doing in a while. You are probably not going to read this post.

2- I enjoy reading your blog, You don't update a lot, and when you do it seems like more of a way for you to talk about your trips.

3- What can I say....friends for a long time....looking forward to our kids being friends. :)

4- You live so close and yet we have never met ? How is that possible ? :)
Our lives seem too much the same some days.

5- Our lives are mirrored only 6 months behind. I look forward to reading what is in store for me and my family. You always give me such good advice

6- Love you, love your blog. Dropped of the daily circuit for a while and since you were one of the only regulars on my blog....I noticed. :)

7- All we need is margaritas, no kids and a couple of backyard chairs. I love reading your blog....it's been an obsession of mine for the last couple of weeks. I would just need to remember to keep my hands to myself.

8- This one is too easy. I admire your strength and love to see the kids pictures and videos. I wished that you would talk more in detail about how it is to raise kids with your "condition" (I don't want to give it COMPLETELY away :) ha ha

9- I don't think you read my blog very often. I do read yours every day and have enjoyed seeing how your family has blossomed. I think that your baby and my oldest have a lot of the same personality traits as babies go. :)

10- I love reading your blog. You are always so insightful. I love to give you advice and talk about our similar pregnancies...I'm pretty sure you don't always love getting my advice :) ha ha

11- I don't think you read my blog very often. I read yours and have noticed since the birth of your beautiful baby you have had your hands full and haven't blogged a lot. I really want to copy your Meez :)

12- I lurk on these 2 blogs...it's not on my list and they probably do not read my blog even when I've posted on theirs. I'm so excited for their recent good news. :)

13- Another lurking blog....not on my list, but I read it every so often. Soon to enjoy the new world of motherhood.....oh and I LOVE their house. Damn nice house.
They will not ever see this so to add some drama to this boring post....you better watch your back blog that I lurk on....or I will start posting my advice on your blog.
Word up !

Thursday, March 22, 2007

And the award goes to ?


My great blogger friend Tiffany awarded me with the Thinking Blogger Award.
I just want to thank her for the nice and loving comments. I don't think that she has a clear view of me....it must be distorted or something.....but nonetheless THANK YOU TIFFANY !

Ok, so I am supposed to pass the award on....since we all read the same blogs I'm only picking one person to award !

I pick mommy mama and cubs. (I tried to insert a link, but blogger isn't letting me publish it...you can get to them through my list of blogs I read)
They have an inspirational story. Both mommy and mama are deaf...raising their beautiful and smart hearing cubs. With all of the obstacles and challenges we all face raising a family, their challenges stretch beyond even what I can imagine them to be. They seem to tackle them with grace and an amazing strength. I'm proud to know and read them.

Now you must keep this award going and award it to someone who makes you go hmm ?!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Happy Belated Birthday Sydney

We actually celebrated it over a period of 1 1/2 weeks.
Here are some pictures from her birthday party we shared with her friends. (Put your mouse on the book and the pages will turn)
There were 13 kids total all but 1 was under the age of 3...wew ! Everyone went swimming. We had it on a Sunday, so we had the pool to ourselves. We ate pizza and of course finished it off with cake.
It's funny how crazy, hungry kids are after they've exercised for 2 hours.

Sydney is an amazing little person. She's smart, precocious, adventurous, articulate, helpful, and has the sweetest heart. I know that one day I will appreciate and be happy that she has such a strong will and hard head.
I have so much fun hanging out with her. She keeps me laughing and on my toes.

Station identification break:
"Sydney NO ! put your brother down.....you should be in bed !"

Hey, what can I say...she's 3 ! :)

Cool Slideshows

Jack Handy


Does everyone know who Jack Handy is ?
Deep Thoughts on Saturday Night Live ?

Examples :
*I think the mistake a lot of us make is thinking the state-appointed shrink is our friend.

*I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.

*I think a pillow should be the symbol of peace, not the dove. The pillow has more feathers than the dove, and it doesn't have that dangerous beak.

*If you ever drop your keys into a river of molten lava, forget em', cause, man, they're gone.

I could list one quote after another, they crack me up. You have to feel the stupidity when you read them to enjoy them. It's a little Napoleon Dynamite'ish.
Ok, to get to my point.

I was getting ready to vacuum the floors. (one of my FAVORITE past times :)
Syd comes running in to the living room, "Mommy can I help !"
I am busy stacking toys, books, crap from the floor that won't fit in to the vacuum on to couches, chairs, and beds.
I headed to her room and started cleaning up the mess Cameron made while she was away at pre-school. "Sure you can help sweetheart, you can help by picking up some of this stuff on the floor."
Syd says to me, "I can't mommy, my hands are full." she immediately goes to the shelf and starts grabbing stuff. "See mommy, my hands are full, so I can't help you clean up."
I look up at her, she has a purse in one hand and her camera dangling over the wrist of her other hand.

So I guess when she said help, she clearly meant that help referred to her running around which ever room I happened to be vacuuming and jumping from couch to chair to bed screaming as if the vacuum was going to get her. And if that wasn't a big enough thrill ride...she could just stand right in front of the vacuum screaming as it came to her feet. Her feet which are planted on top of the carpet I'm trying to vacuum.

Back and around to my whole reason for bringing up Jack Handy. One of my favorite deep thoughts was this one :

To me, it's a good idea to always carry two sacks of something when you walk around. That way, if anybody says, "Hey, can you give me a hand?" you can say, "Sorry, got these sacks."

It's like Sydney was reading a script.
Damn it took me a long time to make my point.

Have a good day....and smile.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

What a Joke ! or The jokes on me !

Q- What do you get when you have two women on their periods/pre menstrual, 2 sick babies and 1 miserable 3 year old?

A- A big F#$%ing mess that's what.

These are the moments that time outs should be given to adults, and children should be kept safely in the garage. :)
I think the ONLY argument that women shouldn't "cohabit"....I won't use the word "married"....as to not offend all of those right wingers reading my blog :) ha ha ha ha ha ha

These are the moments that little pink pills come in handy. :)

Dosage instructions :
Take one-half to one tablet by mouth three times daily as needed for anxiety.
NO REFILL

Damn it, I have to make these few pills last. So of course I cut them in half.
And then I realized one 1/2 was almost minuscule because I cut the already puny pill crooked. I sat honestly for 3 minutes discussing to myself, which side do I take. The bigger side, or the smaller side with the little flaky pieces that broke off when I cut it. I don't tolerate medication very well. DayQuil knocks me on my ass.

My boys were screaming, Syd came in and yelled "TAKE ME BACK TO DANCE CLASS!" (a wonderful story about how we left dance class because she wouldn't listen to Ms. Lori :) I took both halves, even licked my finger to catch the shavings on the counter and popped them in to my mouth and swallowed.
There was no turning back.
J has basketball tonight so I was hoping the affects wouldn't be too devastating.
I did offer one to her, but she turned it down. (evil side, evil voice....good...more for meeee aaah aaah aaah aaaaaaah)

1 hour post taking the full pink pill.....J long gone
I'm drooling, my eyes feel heavy, my brain is sagging in to my vertebrae and my kids are screaming all around me. It's all good. Not bothering me at all.
I can clearly see why they only give you 8 of these things. I could live on these daily.
Getting everyone ready to go out, pop a pink pill, have to put everyone down for naps and everyone wants to do their own thing, pop a pink pill, grocery shopping with 3 kids, pop 3 pink pills.

(Another note to self, call the doctor and tell her the pills fell in to the dish disposal while running and you need some more of these wonderful, and VERY helpful pink pills)
It's all good. Estoy bien (sp) !

Tested, Tried and True !

I just wanted to update you on the sleep progress of my boys.
After the first night of drugs....you know, for their congestion :).....we just used the sound machine.
We also turned the heat down. We normally keep our house at night at 70 degrees. I'm very warm blooded and like it to be warm, plus we don't cover the kids....including Syd. I was always afraid they would be cold. Some nights when I've checked on Syd she will be curled up in the fetal position. I throw her blanket over her, but she usually kicks it off.
We turned it down to 68. We put lighter jammies on the boys and took off their onsies. Most important, we turned the sound machine on to the Ocean setting.
TA-DA dum da-da-da !!!!
Maybe once a night, one of them will make noise and one of us (usually J :) will go in and stick a binky in their mouths.....but that's it.

And now, a Hollywood moment !!!

I just wanted to thank those special people who gave me the idea. I wanted to send my deepest gratitude out to Conair for coming up with an affordable machine, and a drug free option sleep aid. THANK YOU CONAIR.
I thank God and my family....and the producers of this blog.
Thank you. Thanks everyone.



(I'm not a religious girl per se, but I almost typed Amen :) ha ha ha

Monday, March 19, 2007

~ Birth Day ~

We would like to welcome to this wonderful world Jake and Emma.
Born at 6:44 am and 6:45 am 3/19/07....they were exactly the same size weighing
5lbs 8oz.

We have a very special bond with them already as they are 1/2 siblings of my kids as well as Mommy, Mama, and Cubs.

Congratulations moms and big sister Olivia.

Welcome little ones.

L-is for Leaving ?

F#$%, F#$%, F#$% !
Everyone I love leaves. Why are they getting rid of my new two favorite people.
Jodi and Tasha can't leave. I don't understand why it is they are leaving stupid ass Jenny Shecter (sp) and Max.....(can't believe they showed the Dil-yo :).....but they are trying to write off my girls....my reasons for watching the stupid show this season !
Now the first season Marina was hot. She was the bomb....and came back this season a little Lezmiserable....but she was the reason I loved season 1. They got rid of her. Then there was Dana, Carmen, and don't forget the Vet. WHAT'S HAPPENING ?

Let's run over all of the crap last night. Max....what was that ? He shakes their hands, I thought the whole thing was poorly acted.
I'm glad that Tina is going home (so to speak) but I feel bad for the guy (name?) she used in the process.
Helena, pull your head out. It's a scam and you are going to end up in jail.
Do you really think Papi would sit and feed an already blasted Kit more alcohol....and now drugs. The only time I liked Angus was the 1 minute last night he agreed to take Kit to rehab.
Cybill's daughter looks JUST like her mom, she's not the greatest actress though.
Cute that they could act together. They keep Cybill on the show....but Jodi's on the plane. WHAT ?
I guess it's ok to take young children to concerts...at bars...late at night. What ?
When did Shane and whatsername decide to start macking in front of the kid ? Remember, "my moms not gay!" hmmm ?

I really don't want things to be left undone for next season.
I REALLY don't want Tasha to go to Iraq. I am so in to her, not a secret....lets not kill her off. Although a GREAT storyline with gays in the military, and it must be said, but just not my Tasha.
I want Jodi to come back to Bette. She's her match. I think like Marina, Dana and the rest, Tina and Max need to move on.

Living vicariously through T.V characters is exhausting. wew!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Confessional

Dear father I have sinned. It has been 32-3/4 years since I have never confessed.
I drugged my children for a few self-absorbed hours of sleep.
Although much needed father I know that what I did was evil in nature and showed weakness on my part.
I not only drugged my boys who have been the culprit's in keeping me up, but also drugged my daughter for full insurance that I would get some sleep.

In the name of all that's holy and helping me sleep no matter how corrupt, hallelujah.


I titled this picture "Sleep Aid"
Guilty ?...of course....Happy and rested ?....HELL YES !!
J picked up a sound machine on her lunch yesterday. It was recommended by some of our blogger friends. Thanks Twins and a Toddler and Nailgirl.
We immediately plugged it in and tried out several of the settings. We liked the ocean sounds the best. It scared Syd a little....so we drugged her so that she wouldn't have nightmares about it. :)
I'm not sure if the sound machine worked, or if the drugs did their thing....but my kids slept from 10:30 pm until 8:30 am.
Actually....I went in to get Cam who had been babbling for about 15 minutes in his crib and realized that Spencer was still sleeping. I looked in to the crib and noticed his pale coloring. "oh God, I've killed him" My heart paused and I quickly patted his butt and pulled my hand away....still holding my breath, eyes widening.
He of course squirmed and all of the guilt that had filled my ENTIRE body drained away and again I was rested and delighted.
I swept Cameron up in my arms and kissed his neck and chin. It's going to be a GREAT day. To think, they don't have to sleep in the garage after all.

I leave you with a picture of my sweet boys playing on the floor.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Give me your tired your poor !!!

HELP ! My boys won't sleep.
It's been a week and we are all VERY TIRED.
(head bangs on keyboard, asldfkj.......agpao;eh........gwp'ejwlkj)




At 6 months we put them in their cribs because they were getting too big and moving around too much for any of us to sleep good together.
They took to their beds quickly.....the transition was almost TOO smooth.
I, I, I....I just want to sleeeeeeep. My eyes are dry and red and when I blink they seem to stick shut. My head feels heavy and is a little spinny. aaaaaaaaaaahh aaaaaaaaaaaahh haaaaaaaa.

There has to be medication that you can give them. Something that can safely knock them out for at LEAST 6 hours.
Why hasn't somebody marketed this. This has got to be the hottest commodity out there. A solution for sleep deprivation and colic is what they need to focus on. They have medication for restless freaking leg syndrome for hell sakes...but they can't come up with something to knock children out. Safely of course.
Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go right now....oh sure, that is something to consider curing, THIS is BIGGER than even incontinence.

I am not the mom that lets her kids cry themselves to sleep. It's a personal decision and I've chosen to rock and hold mine. I normally have no problems with this decision.....up to now. At this point I would TOTALLY let them cry it out. Guess what....with twins or with more than one kid, you can NOT. If one wakes up and cries for more than a few minutes, then THEY ALL WAKE UP ! And then you have 3 screaming kids and 2 exhausted and tired mommies. Who are already sleep deprived and on the edge, ready to put 2 screaming babies in the garage.

This is where I would discuss drinking during the day. However, if I had a drink right now (as it's happy hour somewhere) I would pass the f*&% out.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

I created a Dream Come True

My little girl is turning three in 1 week.
I'm not handling this birthday well and when previewingd the montage I cried a little. I don't want her to grow up.
Here's a clip of her life up to this point. Just so you know, her song (the one I've been singing to her since her little body came home with me) has been "Close to you" by the Carpenters. BIG Carpenters fan, and I'm not scared to say so. Thus the song in the montage. Syd can sing it word for word now, I will try and capture her singing it on video to download....it's great....my little dream come true :)

Friday, March 9, 2007

Easy as 1-2-3

Hello blog friends,
I wanted to share a recipe with you. It's easy, it's good, and that makes everyone happy. Happy is good.
It's also a casserole. Those of you out there who have not tried casserole, wich is basically defined as throwing several items in to a dish and baking it....need to give this one a try.
I'm sure there are several versions of this recipe out there. I do not know where it originated from, maybe from the back of a cream of chicken soup can. :) It came from my grandma-to my mother-to me-and now happily to you.
I wish I had a picture to show you but alas, this is on next weeks menu. Preparation time 10 minutes. Bake time 1 1/2 hr (total).

From my kitchen to yours :

Rice and Chicken Casserole
1 1/2c raw rice (no Minute Rice)
3 c cold water
1 can cream of chicken soup
3 skinless breasts
1 pkg. onion soup
1 1/2c shredded cheese (I use chedder)

In a 9x13 pan spread dry rice. Sprinkle 1c shredded cheese and onion soup mix over the rice. (no need to stir) Seperate chicken across the top of the rice. (salt and pepper) open can of soup and with a spoon stir until smooth. Then smooth the soup evenly on top of each piece of chicken until gone. Pour water over entire dish.
Bake 1 hr. at 350.
Sprinkle remaining cheese, cover with foil and bake another 1/2 hr.

Eat.

P.S. If anyone else has a quick and easy dish that you love, and to help make a crazy mothers life a little easier....let me know.

P.S.S Mac and Cheese doesn't count.

Thursday, March 8, 2007

TMI......Do not read this if you can't handle candid talk about hoo-hoo's !!!

Someone must talk about this....and usually I'm the one to bring it up.
I've recently discovered the WHY behind vaginoplasty.
I stopped breastfeeding a few weeks ago and was visited by my Aunt Flo for the first time this past week. Now, TMI is TMI, but how to put this as to not offend myself.

Nothing fits anymore. ie. tampons, and not those finger applicator, battery size tampons. I'm talking super size tampax tampons with the cardboard applicator. I ended up sitting on sanitary napkins, which I despise, the entire week. In my defense, I was just getting over bronchitis and would have these intense and extreme coughing attacks. Once you have children, coughing, and sneezing is NOT a good thing. You pee a little, and apparently can shoot tampons out of your vajayjay.
Well, "I" was unable to keep them in.

I've decided to come up with other purposes for my vergina. It's presently not being used and rather than sulk about it's current circumstance, I thought I'd find something that it's good at.

STORAGE :

*A secret hiding place. Lord knows I hate throwing away those important liquids when I fly. Shampoos, conditioners, perfume...etc. Anything over 2 oz and they make you throw it away. Well I will just hide it in my vajayjay. Money saver really.



*A purse that you don't have to worry about leaving at the table. I HATE having to remember my purse when I go to dinner or out for drinks. I could just take my lipstick, a credit card, maybe $5.00, some loose change. Oh and nail clippers, because I HATE when I get a jagged nail that catches on everything.

You know, I tried to blame this on having twins. I wasn't thinking about the fact that the 2nd twin born (Cam) was a little smaller than his brother. Hmmm ? Try again.
I can blame it on having 3 babies. That doesn't work either because everything, including the skin on my stomach snapped right back after Syd. These boys did a number on me. It's the hormones, the hormones for sure.

Whatever the hell it is, I've been kegeling for a week.
Ok I'm lying, but I've been kegeling while I've been typing this post. It's tired and I've realized, like everything else in life, exercise and hard work will make it better. And like my stomach I will adjust to them being bigger, flabby, and loose...because who has time for hard work and exercise with 3 babies.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Tuesday Trivia

Q- How much toilet paper can go down a toilet before it floods over.

A- A little more than needed, but not a whole roll.

I'm putting my little Cameron to sleep, and Syd starts dancing around, "I've got to go potty, I've got to go potty....oh dear, oh dear" (she's a little dramatic)
Now she's almost 3, and can put herself on the toilet when she wants to.....sometimes she still likes mom to help.
OF COURSE THIS WOULD BE ONE OF THOSE TIMES. I swear she waits until my hands are full and then predictably decides that she needs my help.

I tell her to start and that I would be in to help her.
My intent was to wait long enough so that I didn't have to help at all.
My plan worked. I hear her going, I hear her flush, I hear her screaming and crying. I called out to her softly (as to not wake up Cameron who has just fallen asleep nuzzled in my arm), "what's the matter sweetheart ?"
Knowing it could be something as simple as her zipper is stuck.
No answer.
Again, "Sydney, what's wrong ?"
She comes in to the boys room still crying..."the toilet scared me!"
I lay Cameron down, walk over Spencer who is now crying because his sister is clearly upset and he feels super sad that she's sad. (always..such empathetic children)
I walk towards the bathroom and hear water dripping. As I enter, I see puddles of water accumulating around the toilet and see wads of soaking wet toilet paper scooped nicely out of the toilet by a scared 2 year old and placed on the counter.
UGH!


If you notice on this picture a little fuzzy white thing next to the tub...that would ALSO be a little extra toilet paper that some how did not get stuck and floated out and on to my floor.


I know it's just water, and that diluted to the umpteenth power her pee isn't going to kill me either..but the thought of cleaning this mess up turns my stomach.
Like buggers, puke, and the diarrhea that went before this, I lived.

After I cleaned up the mess, with Sydney supervising over my shoulder I wash my hands (THOROUGHLY) and dried them off. Sydney says to me "Good job mom, give me 5" hand held out. I slap her 5 and smile. "give me some bones" she adds.....now holding her knuckles up. I hit knuckles with her and picked her up....because that deserved a huge hug.

Right now as I type this however, she's in time out. Why, because she growled and scared her brother....just for fun. And...because I'm still a little pissed about the toilet flowing over. :)ha ha

Monday, March 5, 2007

3 MORE EPISODES

WHAT ???
It just started. Why must it end so quickly, RIGHT when I started to get into it.

How funny was last nights episode of the L-Word.
Alice's bed scene was almost as funny as the phone conversations 2 weeks ago.
Poor Leonard. Asking the questions so many men want to know. How to really please their women.
I LOVE Alice and Tasha, I kept smiling when they showed scenes from last week.
Alice and Tasha heated over the war, "Why are you there ?" asks a cute and confused Alice.
"Why am I even here ?!" Tasha gets up to leave.
"Because we want to f*ck each other."
Go Alice, Go Alice, Go, Go, Go Alice.

I REALLY want Bette and Jodi to work it out. I hope Jodi isn't really a "heart breaker". :) I was hoping for some more grinding metal in the shop last night.

Does anyone else think that Helena is going to get burned in a very bad way ?

Will they get Papi and Kit together ? Or will Kit break her heart and teach her to keep it in her pants ? hmmmm

WHAT IS UP with Tina and Jenny ? I still can't STAND Tina....ugh.....she looked extremely stupid yesterday trying to get Jenny a movie deal. And what was up with Marina and her poorly cast rendition of Mou-les Rouge ? LOVED Marina in the first season....now she's just an after thought and I don't like that one bit.

What are they going to do....what are they going to do.....in 3 more episodes ?
My only hope is for Tasha and Jodi to come back for season 5......and for Angus, Tina and Phyllis to quietly disappear.

My wet dream is for them to bring Queen Latifah on.
Maybe have Angelina do a guest spot...OR, for my wife, Charlize Theron.
(now....I have to go take a cold shower)

Saturday, March 3, 2007

If you build it they will come

Cool Slideshows


Syd decided to build a tower of blocks and books. I was certain each book and set of blocks she added was going to topple the tower down.....but alas, it stood strong.
Once she dancer spun and kicked them down (a little move I taught her) she decided to make letters out of the blocks. She was most proud of her letter T.

Later as I put the boys down for a nap, I emerged from their room to find another tower had been built with candles and books on my entry table. I have an architect on my hands....or possibly a construction worker. :)

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Ultrasound


"Psst,hey, did you hear that ? What the hell are Lebanese parents ?" (Spencer)
"Hell if I know, and quit stealing all of the membrane, I'm cold !" (Cameron)



I came across this ultrasound of my boys today. I had emailed the ultrasound to a bunch of my friends when we got them done at fetal photo...this really creative and funny guy sent it back with this added conversation piece :) It cracks me up.
This was at 15 weeks, when we found out we were having 2 little boys.

Now they are 7 months and the sweetest 2 little boys ever.


My Cam-man took his first 3 steps on Monday night. The thing that amazes me about the kid, is that we haven't worked with him at all. His sister was an early walker, but required us to walk her EVERYWHERE. We would walk her between us and eventually she just took off. Cam was standing by his toy and then decided to just walk away.

My little Spencer still spins in circles on his tummy, and usually goes backwards when up on his knees....which I think requires a lot more talent than going forward. :)

I'm so blessed to have these two boys.