Success - an event that accomplishes it's intended purpose. outcome. result.
How do you define Success ?
Is it your job, your mind, your money ? Is it by the success of your children, their jobs, their money, their education ? Is it winning everything, or just being able to try ? Is it being loved and the ability to love someone else ?
I would like to say it's a measure of happiness and contentedness in your life. and damn it I try and tell myself that I believe that.
My success right now is wrapped up in raising good kids who grow up to be good people. and then...that's where I get stuck. Do I want them to strive for everything....the education, the career, the money, the family, the love ? (J would have me add, the sports career, and then I quickly acknowledge her and continue) and all of that will make them happy. right ? I will be able to say I succeeded. I am a success.
You see, this is my job. raising all of these kids. The outcome all depends on what I do. how I do it. the decisions I make. whether they eat organic wheat bread or white processed bread. it all plays this role in to who they become and if they don't measure up, well, then...I'm a failure. I didn't do my job.
Or at least that's the way I feel. And lately I feel like I'm working my ASS off and yet I'm still failing.
I also have this added pressure. I'm not sure if you feel it too ? but I feel like, if my kids grow up and become slugs....good for nothin'....it's because they were raised with 2 moms. They never had a chance.
I feel like I HAVE to raise kids who don't just pass the bar but fly over it. Just to prove that HEY, GUESS WHAT....I raised happy, healthy, successful kids and I'm GAY ! You ever feel like that ? Like you have to work twice as hard to prove yourself, because you want to prove to those lawmakers and religious folk who want us to fail, that we not only succeeded but produced something EXTRAORDINARY !
(ya, no pressure kids, none at all)
Yet I'm certain that we all want our kids to be amazing. to change the world, find a cure for cancer, invent the next car that runs on recycled plastic, save puppies and orphans and heal the blind.
I am trying to define what success means to me. to my family. Once I can define it, I can work on accomplishing it. Right now I feel like a failure and yet I have nothing to base it upon. yet I'm letting that feeling wreak havoc in my life.
So tell me, What is your definition of Success ?
And what is it that you are doing now to raise successful kids ? It can be anything. What's important to you ?
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
It's nodda seesha (must be said like Ahnuld)
So what we have is something else altogether. Some infantile something. Infantile jerking. that's what I'll name it. :)
It's kind of like what happens when you fall asleep. Odd that it would last so long, but not so odd that we won't throw our heads back and laugh out loud at how lucky we are that it's just some dumb infantile jerking.
A little help for those, like me, who don't know. To know if your child is having a seizure.
If your child does any kind of repetitive twitching that you can't stop by placing your hand on them to control. ie. if their arm was jerking back and forth and you placed your hand on it and you could still feel the muscle contract.
A big one is fatigue right afterwards. Which was a huge sign that Nathan did NOT have one because he was up until midnight as happy as a little lark. A seizure takes a lot out of a person. They will usually have a post seizure nap.
Eyes rolling back. Posturing. All things to look for.
We will watch for anything weird and document it. If it starts to become a trend we'll go get him checked out. I don't imagine we'll see anything else. I love leaving with good news.
Thanks for the unsolicited advice ;-)
It's kind of like what happens when you fall asleep. Odd that it would last so long, but not so odd that we won't throw our heads back and laugh out loud at how lucky we are that it's just some dumb infantile jerking.
A little help for those, like me, who don't know. To know if your child is having a seizure.
If your child does any kind of repetitive twitching that you can't stop by placing your hand on them to control. ie. if their arm was jerking back and forth and you placed your hand on it and you could still feel the muscle contract.
A big one is fatigue right afterwards. Which was a huge sign that Nathan did NOT have one because he was up until midnight as happy as a little lark. A seizure takes a lot out of a person. They will usually have a post seizure nap.
Eyes rolling back. Posturing. All things to look for.
We will watch for anything weird and document it. If it starts to become a trend we'll go get him checked out. I don't imagine we'll see anything else. I love leaving with good news.
Thanks for the unsolicited advice ;-)
It happened one night.....
It's 7:36pm Sunday night....and almost everyone is in bed and asleep. I have a box of caramel crunch-n-munch that I'd been hiding in the back of the cupboard and my wife downstairs finishing the football game (it didn't matter who won...because my COLTS are already winners) waiting for me to get down there so we could watch a movie. JUST SO THAT I WOULD HAVE SOMETHING TO REVIEW TODAY !
I'm rocking Nathan who decided that he didn't want to be asleep. J came up around 8pm and said..."he's not going to sleep, just bring him down...he can play in the playroom while we watch the movie."
I very quietly bit her head off saying something super sweet like, "Whatever ! he won't play he'll eat my popcorn and bug me, and I won't be able to hear the movie....just forget it....I'll just rock him...it just pisses me off that when we plan a movie night and everyone participates but one and I'm stuck with him."
J, walks back in the room..."what did you say ?"
Me. "fuh, nothing. just go !"
hee hee hee
ok. so...I'm rocking him and rocking him and like 20 minutes later I'm still rocking him.....but I'll be damned if I'm going to take him downstairs and let the wife win so I keep on a rocking him.
I close my eyes and pretend to be asleep so that he doesn't play....and then I peek every so often to see if he is sleeping.
He was very relaxed but his eyes were wide open.
All of a sudden he started twitching. You know, jolting like when they first start going to sleep and feel lke they are falling so they jump. Only he kept flinching. and I was thinking...is he asleep ?....so I peeked at him, but his eyes were still open.
His body kept jolting and I kept thinking...what the hell ? So now I'm looking at him. It's dark, but I can see is eyes just starring forward. I couldn't figure out what was happening and then it stopped and he sat up and grabbed a hold of my shirt and laid on my chest. It felt like a long time but in reality it was probably only 20 seconds.
I went downstairs with him and sat him up on my hip and told J, "I think Nathan just had a seizure"
I explained what happened and we both sat there perplexed. He started pointing and talking so I walked in, shut the door and stood him up on the floor to go play.
He was super shaky. Like when a baby wakes up before it's time and their whole little bodies shake. He was doing that. So we both just watched him and he gathered his footing and started for the POPCORN ! (I knew he would) and acted like nothing happened. like he was fine.
We turned on our movie and after dealing with Syd's night terror (yes they are back...went away for a week and have been back since. not quite as bad though) which woke up Ryan. Which then took both J and I away to deal with a kid each. Which left Nathan free to run and tip over J's diet coke everywhere and then he ran upstairs to wake up the older boys. ugh.
We finally got done watching the movie at 11:30 pm.
Nathan, still up and kicking cried for a while. We tried ignoring him (remember he's in our room) and then we finally put him in bed with us. He climbed down, get up, climb down, J said, "no, this is not a game", so he ran to my side, get up, climbed down, get up, climbed down...try and get up....I stopped helping...cried "down" I ignored him....cried "down"...I was so tired and done at this point said, "it's up asshole" and hoisted him on the bed. J couldn't stop laughing, and of course I was laughing, which started Nathan laughing...because he didn't know what it was that he did, but whatever it was it was funny, so maybe if I jump up and fall on my toosh it will be funny too. No. not funny. "go to sleep" he did. at midnight.
The babies have their 18 month appointment on the 5th, so I wondered if we could talk to the doctor then about the seizure and just watch him...or if we needed to come in sooner.
They wanted to see him today so that it could be documented. We go in tonight at 6pm.
I sure hope this was just a one time thing. He's not sick, well besides the tail end of a cold...no fever. Weird.
Any ways. I have movies to review as it is MOVIE MONDAY !!!
Finn's girl - A movie about a doctor who's partner had just died of breast cancer. It doesn't tell you that until 1/2 way through the movie...but I don't think I'm spoiling anything by telling you. you know she's dead.
The partner is raising their VERY spirited 11 year daughter...they conceived her together although it seems it was a known donor and he's a part of her life too.
The mom works at an abortion clinic and is threatened all of the time.
The movie is about how the mom deals with the death of her partner, new life with other women, her daughter and the clinic.
My opinion. It was slooooooooooooooooow. It wasn't that it was so so bad. Maybe it didn't help with all of the interruptions going on. I mean, Nathan was crawling over us, trying to tip stuff over, trying to open the door etc.the ENTIRE movie. After it was over I asked J what she thought. She said, "I didn't hate it, but it was really slow."
D.E.B.S - It's like Clueless meets Charlie's Angels meets star trek meets Mad TV. It's about a school for private eyes. They save the world one bad guy at a time. These 4 girls are the lead team. They are after a master mind criminal who just happens to be this hot lesbian.
That's all I'm saying.
My opinion. I don't know how it is that I have never seen this movie. I have never laughed so hard at a lesbian movie. It is HILARIOUS ! I kept saying to J, "what is this movie...it's freaking me out!" and it did....it freaked me out. but it was good...right ? I mean, it's so off, but it was good.
So watch it.
Bobbie's Girl - This is one that we've seen before, but I didn't have listed. It stars none other than Bernadette Peters (who I LOVE) She and her partner inherit her partners nephew after his parents were killed in a car wreck. He is THE sweetest little boy and you won't NOT be able to fall madly in love with him. and his eyes.
They own a bar and parents they are not....but he is theirs so they try to make the best of it.
He goes through the death of his parents whle the partner deals with breast cancer.
Bernadette Peters is a rock star lesbian. Great movie.
My opinion - Rent this movie. It's great.
Aimee and Jaguar - Another one that I had seen but FOR SURE needed to list. Such a beautiful story about a Jewish woman, hiding under a false name who falls in love with a married with 4 kids German woman. She has the chance to leave and get someplace safe when they are close on her tail but chooses to stay through the end of the war with her lovely Lilly.
My opinion - This is a GREAT movie. Beautiful acting...I think it is subtitled, but it didn't even bother me. Must see. (oh and me thinks it was based on a true story ?? Not sure. probably several)
I hope everyone is keeping track. :)
I'm rocking Nathan who decided that he didn't want to be asleep. J came up around 8pm and said..."he's not going to sleep, just bring him down...he can play in the playroom while we watch the movie."
I very quietly bit her head off saying something super sweet like, "Whatever ! he won't play he'll eat my popcorn and bug me, and I won't be able to hear the movie....just forget it....I'll just rock him...it just pisses me off that when we plan a movie night and everyone participates but one and I'm stuck with him."
J, walks back in the room..."what did you say ?"
Me. "fuh, nothing. just go !"
hee hee hee
ok. so...I'm rocking him and rocking him and like 20 minutes later I'm still rocking him.....but I'll be damned if I'm going to take him downstairs and let the wife win so I keep on a rocking him.
I close my eyes and pretend to be asleep so that he doesn't play....and then I peek every so often to see if he is sleeping.
He was very relaxed but his eyes were wide open.
All of a sudden he started twitching. You know, jolting like when they first start going to sleep and feel lke they are falling so they jump. Only he kept flinching. and I was thinking...is he asleep ?....so I peeked at him, but his eyes were still open.
His body kept jolting and I kept thinking...what the hell ? So now I'm looking at him. It's dark, but I can see is eyes just starring forward. I couldn't figure out what was happening and then it stopped and he sat up and grabbed a hold of my shirt and laid on my chest. It felt like a long time but in reality it was probably only 20 seconds.
I went downstairs with him and sat him up on my hip and told J, "I think Nathan just had a seizure"
I explained what happened and we both sat there perplexed. He started pointing and talking so I walked in, shut the door and stood him up on the floor to go play.
He was super shaky. Like when a baby wakes up before it's time and their whole little bodies shake. He was doing that. So we both just watched him and he gathered his footing and started for the POPCORN ! (I knew he would) and acted like nothing happened. like he was fine.
We turned on our movie and after dealing with Syd's night terror (yes they are back...went away for a week and have been back since. not quite as bad though) which woke up Ryan. Which then took both J and I away to deal with a kid each. Which left Nathan free to run and tip over J's diet coke everywhere and then he ran upstairs to wake up the older boys. ugh.
We finally got done watching the movie at 11:30 pm.
Nathan, still up and kicking cried for a while. We tried ignoring him (remember he's in our room) and then we finally put him in bed with us. He climbed down, get up, climb down, J said, "no, this is not a game", so he ran to my side, get up, climbed down, get up, climbed down...try and get up....I stopped helping...cried "down" I ignored him....cried "down"...I was so tired and done at this point said, "it's up asshole" and hoisted him on the bed. J couldn't stop laughing, and of course I was laughing, which started Nathan laughing...because he didn't know what it was that he did, but whatever it was it was funny, so maybe if I jump up and fall on my toosh it will be funny too. No. not funny. "go to sleep" he did. at midnight.
The babies have their 18 month appointment on the 5th, so I wondered if we could talk to the doctor then about the seizure and just watch him...or if we needed to come in sooner.
They wanted to see him today so that it could be documented. We go in tonight at 6pm.
I sure hope this was just a one time thing. He's not sick, well besides the tail end of a cold...no fever. Weird.
Any ways. I have movies to review as it is MOVIE MONDAY !!!
Finn's girl - A movie about a doctor who's partner had just died of breast cancer. It doesn't tell you that until 1/2 way through the movie...but I don't think I'm spoiling anything by telling you. you know she's dead.
The partner is raising their VERY spirited 11 year daughter...they conceived her together although it seems it was a known donor and he's a part of her life too.
The mom works at an abortion clinic and is threatened all of the time.
The movie is about how the mom deals with the death of her partner, new life with other women, her daughter and the clinic.
My opinion. It was slooooooooooooooooow. It wasn't that it was so so bad. Maybe it didn't help with all of the interruptions going on. I mean, Nathan was crawling over us, trying to tip stuff over, trying to open the door etc.the ENTIRE movie. After it was over I asked J what she thought. She said, "I didn't hate it, but it was really slow."
D.E.B.S - It's like Clueless meets Charlie's Angels meets star trek meets Mad TV. It's about a school for private eyes. They save the world one bad guy at a time. These 4 girls are the lead team. They are after a master mind criminal who just happens to be this hot lesbian.
That's all I'm saying.
My opinion. I don't know how it is that I have never seen this movie. I have never laughed so hard at a lesbian movie. It is HILARIOUS ! I kept saying to J, "what is this movie...it's freaking me out!" and it did....it freaked me out. but it was good...right ? I mean, it's so off, but it was good.
So watch it.
Bobbie's Girl - This is one that we've seen before, but I didn't have listed. It stars none other than Bernadette Peters (who I LOVE) She and her partner inherit her partners nephew after his parents were killed in a car wreck. He is THE sweetest little boy and you won't NOT be able to fall madly in love with him. and his eyes.
They own a bar and parents they are not....but he is theirs so they try to make the best of it.
He goes through the death of his parents whle the partner deals with breast cancer.
Bernadette Peters is a rock star lesbian. Great movie.
My opinion - Rent this movie. It's great.
Aimee and Jaguar - Another one that I had seen but FOR SURE needed to list. Such a beautiful story about a Jewish woman, hiding under a false name who falls in love with a married with 4 kids German woman. She has the chance to leave and get someplace safe when they are close on her tail but chooses to stay through the end of the war with her lovely Lilly.
My opinion - This is a GREAT movie. Beautiful acting...I think it is subtitled, but it didn't even bother me. Must see. (oh and me thinks it was based on a true story ?? Not sure. probably several)
I hope everyone is keeping track. :)
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Syd's beauty tips
Syd is super great about giving me beauty tips. She gives me great hints all of the time.
Like :
"Mom, I like it when you shower"
and, "Mom, you should wear that black shirt, ya, that one, and some pants. you know, some that are levi's"
or, "When you wash your hair, you know, so that it's not all pokey uppy and stuff....I think it looks WAY better."
last one, "mom are you going to wear your pajama's to take me to gymnastics, AGAIN ?!"
She was finally done talking and decided to do something to help.
Like :
"Mom, I like it when you shower"
and, "Mom, you should wear that black shirt, ya, that one, and some pants. you know, some that are levi's"
or, "When you wash your hair, you know, so that it's not all pokey uppy and stuff....I think it looks WAY better."
last one, "mom are you going to wear your pajama's to take me to gymnastics, AGAIN ?!"
She was finally done talking and decided to do something to help.
Before shots
THAT. looks WAY better mom !
What do you think ? Not too shabby. I was expecting MUCH MUCH worse for a first timer :)
and frankly. she's right. I look much better after I shower. Now I just need to go put on that black shirt and levi's.
Spencer said, WOW mama, I luf you !
I love you too Spencer :) ha ha
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Ahoy Matey !
Last requirement for Cameron to be a real live potty trained boy. He needed to go potty at school. Today on his last day before going off track until the middle of February, Cam peed at school.
The pirate ship is his. Way to go buddy ! We are SO DAMN PROUD OF YOU.
(oh and you have no idea how hard it was to get this picture of JUST Cam and his pirate ship. It went something like this. "Spencer, just let me get ONE picture"...screaming "nooo I play with a SHIP ! Sydney :"why don't you ever take pictures of ME ! The boys get EVERYTHING !"....."Nathan and Ryan can you please stay back"...."NO BABIES, stop touching my ship"..."please everyone, just get back so that I can get one picture, all I want is one picture, is that too much to ask. move. Syd, I'm serious. Nathan and Ryan, GET BACK. Go, NOW, EVERYONE ! ok Cam...smile." (re-writing it makes me smile)
The pirate ship is his. Way to go buddy ! We are SO DAMN PROUD OF YOU.
(oh and you have no idea how hard it was to get this picture of JUST Cam and his pirate ship. It went something like this. "Spencer, just let me get ONE picture"...screaming "nooo I play with a SHIP ! Sydney :"why don't you ever take pictures of ME ! The boys get EVERYTHING !"....."Nathan and Ryan can you please stay back"...."NO BABIES, stop touching my ship"..."please everyone, just get back so that I can get one picture, all I want is one picture, is that too much to ask. move. Syd, I'm serious. Nathan and Ryan, GET BACK. Go, NOW, EVERYONE ! ok Cam...smile." (re-writing it makes me smile)
Those are some big shoes to fill buddy. Think you can potty train by 3 1/2 too? aaawww that smirk tells me that you CAN ! How about two ? Two it is ! :)
Mostly this was posted because, how stinking cute is he. He LOVES wearing moms shoes around. I love watching the seriousness in his sweet little face as he gets them on and then clomps around the house.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
The stars seem to be aligned
Monday I have my dentist appointment. massage. everything is great.
well except for that whole root canal thing.
SO THEN. I decide to get the PMDD thing checked out....and my doctor, who is currently booking out a year, had a last minute cancellation and was able to get me in the following day (tuesday) at 12noon.
I have my root canal information in hand. It wasn't hurting so bad. Not waking me up or anything. I can drink cold water. and then yesterday....drinking cold water and sharp pains jolt through my jaw. Last night....terrible pains in my cheek, jaw, ears radiate and wake me up. not once, but several times during my night of not so much sleep.
My original, we'll check to make sure you really need a root canal appointment was scheduled for Friday with the endodontist. I called today to see if they could possibly get my screening appointment earlier so that I could hopefully have the canal done on Friday's appointment.
SURE ENOUGH...they were able to squeeze me in today at 11am. AND THEN. they called me. 9 Am. Syd and the babies are in the tub. both boys are naked and waiting for their turn, and I've yet to even consider when I will have time to shower. The dentist office calls and says...."if you can come in today at 10 am we can do it all in one appointment" ONE APPOINTMENT. and today no less.
This is very important because my loving wife has had to juggle like crazy to work around these appointments. including when I dropped all 5 off at her office during my ladies appointment yesterday.
So today. Wednesday. I have managed to fix all that ails me.
Well all that ails my body. My soul is still searching for something. Maybe it would find it if all of this screaming would stop. and for the first time in a week...the screaming isn't in my head. :)
well except for that whole root canal thing.
SO THEN. I decide to get the PMDD thing checked out....and my doctor, who is currently booking out a year, had a last minute cancellation and was able to get me in the following day (tuesday) at 12noon.
I have my root canal information in hand. It wasn't hurting so bad. Not waking me up or anything. I can drink cold water. and then yesterday....drinking cold water and sharp pains jolt through my jaw. Last night....terrible pains in my cheek, jaw, ears radiate and wake me up. not once, but several times during my night of not so much sleep.
My original, we'll check to make sure you really need a root canal appointment was scheduled for Friday with the endodontist. I called today to see if they could possibly get my screening appointment earlier so that I could hopefully have the canal done on Friday's appointment.
SURE ENOUGH...they were able to squeeze me in today at 11am. AND THEN. they called me. 9 Am. Syd and the babies are in the tub. both boys are naked and waiting for their turn, and I've yet to even consider when I will have time to shower. The dentist office calls and says...."if you can come in today at 10 am we can do it all in one appointment" ONE APPOINTMENT. and today no less.
This is very important because my loving wife has had to juggle like crazy to work around these appointments. including when I dropped all 5 off at her office during my ladies appointment yesterday.
So today. Wednesday. I have managed to fix all that ails me.
Well all that ails my body. My soul is still searching for something. Maybe it would find it if all of this screaming would stop. and for the first time in a week...the screaming isn't in my head. :)
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
New va-va-va-va-ring
Stop ovulation and call me in the morning.
I was given a few options. first one offered was to up my Zol0ft. the second to stop ovulation.
I offered to have it cut out and with a responded hesitated laugh, thought I might have room to negotiate....but alas...the old ute is staying in.
I asked about YA.Z. she said that was fine. She pushed for the nuva.ring. I don't know if it's because it is in fact a good option or if it's because they push it for the companies. either way, I'm giving it a try.
Stick it in. pull it out. doesn't seem like it will be too hard, right ?!
It's better than adding another pill to my regime every night.
Plus....apparently with the pill...you take one...your hormones go down...the effects start to wear off in 24hrs and your hormones go back up...you take the next pill...your hormones go down. and so on and so on.
With the ring, so she says, it is a constant release of hormones...so there isn't a swing. just a ring (ha ha ha)
Also, you don't have to worry about upsetting your stomach because....well...it's up your ver-jaynus.
So other than worrying about the damn thing falling out, no sweat. She doesn't think that it will fall out....even after reminding her what a large vergina I have...you know, because I birthed all those babies. :)
It's this easy ladies. SO many people seem to suffer with this in silence. There is no need to. Go to your doctor and see what your options are. It may be as easy as taking Calcium supplements. Or primrose.
I told my doctor that when you finally feel normal you know what crazy feels like. and that's when you know you need help.
I will be playing horseshoe with my cervix in about a week. Next month I should know if it's working. (although she said it may take a couple of cycles) but if I know my sensitive system....it's gonna know soon.
I'm just GIDDY with anticipation. I can't tell you how HAPPY I AM to have something to look forward to. and something to not have to look forward to hopefully ever again.
eeeeeeeeeeh !!!!
I was given a few options. first one offered was to up my Zol0ft. the second to stop ovulation.
I offered to have it cut out and with a responded hesitated laugh, thought I might have room to negotiate....but alas...the old ute is staying in.
I asked about YA.Z. she said that was fine. She pushed for the nuva.ring. I don't know if it's because it is in fact a good option or if it's because they push it for the companies. either way, I'm giving it a try.
Stick it in. pull it out. doesn't seem like it will be too hard, right ?!
It's better than adding another pill to my regime every night.
Plus....apparently with the pill...you take one...your hormones go down...the effects start to wear off in 24hrs and your hormones go back up...you take the next pill...your hormones go down. and so on and so on.
With the ring, so she says, it is a constant release of hormones...so there isn't a swing. just a ring (ha ha ha)
Also, you don't have to worry about upsetting your stomach because....well...it's up your ver-jaynus.
So other than worrying about the damn thing falling out, no sweat. She doesn't think that it will fall out....even after reminding her what a large vergina I have...you know, because I birthed all those babies. :)
It's this easy ladies. SO many people seem to suffer with this in silence. There is no need to. Go to your doctor and see what your options are. It may be as easy as taking Calcium supplements. Or primrose.
I told my doctor that when you finally feel normal you know what crazy feels like. and that's when you know you need help.
I will be playing horseshoe with my cervix in about a week. Next month I should know if it's working. (although she said it may take a couple of cycles) but if I know my sensitive system....it's gonna know soon.
I'm just GIDDY with anticipation. I can't tell you how HAPPY I AM to have something to look forward to. and something to not have to look forward to hopefully ever again.
eeeeeeeeeeh !!!!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Everything's better with the word Spa in it.
I had a sore tooth. Made an appointment with our new Dentist. side note: I haven't been in 7 years.
Went. it's abscessed. soooo. I had the best experience evah !!
This new dental office is the best ! It ROCKS !
Let me just give you a run down of what happens.
It's called the Sugarhouse Dental spa. (Dr. Graham (801) 466-6645) after you are finished reading you will need this information to set your next appointment (I believe they except most insurances)
OMGAW MARSHA !
So you go in and someone very pleasantly comes in all positive with all of this light energy (whatever the hell that means) and takes you to a room with massage chairs. They offer you a plethora of drinks (cappuccino, flavored coffees, any kind of tea, water...no alcohol...I asked) They hand you your paper work and you sit and let the chair do all of the work while you fill it out.
They have the typical spa music playing. You forget that you are there to have your teeth worked on. I kept thinking I was getting a pedicure or a leg wax.
Then someone comes and calls your name. They walk you over to a pan full of paraffin wax to dip your hands into. They cover them with plastic and 2 big cloth mitts. They lead you to the dentists chair.
The spa music changes to Jazzy music. They offered me a cool or a hot mask for my eyes. I chose the hot mask.
Without moving x-rays were taken. The dentist (I just wrote dentits.. ha ha :) came in and asked what was bothering me. He left to check out my x-rays. My teeth were then buffed and polished.
He came back in and confirmed the abscess. Nothing else. NOTHING. in 7 years not a cavity. and I DON'T FLOSS !!!! wait. I just used my inside voice. I mean...I totally floss and brush 3 times a day and am not nasty or have halitosis or nothin'.
So then the hygienist comes in and started poking at my gums. Not fun really. Not MISERABLE...but not super comfortable. She told me it might get a little more rough and offered me a prescription mouthwash that numbs the gums.....you know, just to make me more comfortable. and it was more comfortable.
and I was happy. they took my blood pressure 111/62 which I have to say would have been even lower if they didn't take it in the middle of the plaque removal procedure. they swapped out my eye mask a couple of times and THEN.
The girl comes back in and instead of making a balloon animal of my choice. She replaced the eye mask with a wet hot washcloth. She rubbed oil on my temples and then gave me an amazing jaw, forehead and neck massage.
After THAT was over. She took the mitts off of my hands and massaged my hands while removing the plastic bag and wax off of both hands.
My next cleaning isn't for 6 months and DAMN IT I wished I could go back in 2.
Seriously. I don't like the dentist. SO much so that I haven't been in 7 years. Well that and a lack of insurance.
OH AND....if you don't have insurance and go in for a cleaning and x-rays.....it's only $100.00.
My mouth isn't numb anymore and my teeth are slippery when wet and to top it all off I wiped red. (sigh) I swear it's because of the special oils and massage. :)
Today is a GOOD day ! I made it through another hell week. and other than having to now schedule a root canal with no paraffin wax or herbal calming oils on my temples.....life is a-ok.
Went. it's abscessed. soooo. I had the best experience evah !!
This new dental office is the best ! It ROCKS !
Let me just give you a run down of what happens.
It's called the Sugarhouse Dental spa. (Dr. Graham (801) 466-6645) after you are finished reading you will need this information to set your next appointment (I believe they except most insurances)
OMGAW MARSHA !
So you go in and someone very pleasantly comes in all positive with all of this light energy (whatever the hell that means) and takes you to a room with massage chairs. They offer you a plethora of drinks (cappuccino, flavored coffees, any kind of tea, water...no alcohol...I asked) They hand you your paper work and you sit and let the chair do all of the work while you fill it out.
They have the typical spa music playing. You forget that you are there to have your teeth worked on. I kept thinking I was getting a pedicure or a leg wax.
Then someone comes and calls your name. They walk you over to a pan full of paraffin wax to dip your hands into. They cover them with plastic and 2 big cloth mitts. They lead you to the dentists chair.
The spa music changes to Jazzy music. They offered me a cool or a hot mask for my eyes. I chose the hot mask.
Without moving x-rays were taken. The dentist (I just wrote dentits.. ha ha :) came in and asked what was bothering me. He left to check out my x-rays. My teeth were then buffed and polished.
He came back in and confirmed the abscess. Nothing else. NOTHING. in 7 years not a cavity. and I DON'T FLOSS !!!! wait. I just used my inside voice. I mean...I totally floss and brush 3 times a day and am not nasty or have halitosis or nothin'.
So then the hygienist comes in and started poking at my gums. Not fun really. Not MISERABLE...but not super comfortable. She told me it might get a little more rough and offered me a prescription mouthwash that numbs the gums.....you know, just to make me more comfortable. and it was more comfortable.
and I was happy. they took my blood pressure 111/62 which I have to say would have been even lower if they didn't take it in the middle of the plaque removal procedure. they swapped out my eye mask a couple of times and THEN.
The girl comes back in and instead of making a balloon animal of my choice. She replaced the eye mask with a wet hot washcloth. She rubbed oil on my temples and then gave me an amazing jaw, forehead and neck massage.
After THAT was over. She took the mitts off of my hands and massaged my hands while removing the plastic bag and wax off of both hands.
My next cleaning isn't for 6 months and DAMN IT I wished I could go back in 2.
Seriously. I don't like the dentist. SO much so that I haven't been in 7 years. Well that and a lack of insurance.
OH AND....if you don't have insurance and go in for a cleaning and x-rays.....it's only $100.00.
My mouth isn't numb anymore and my teeth are slippery when wet and to top it all off I wiped red. (sigh) I swear it's because of the special oils and massage. :)
Today is a GOOD day ! I made it through another hell week. and other than having to now schedule a root canal with no paraffin wax or herbal calming oils on my temples.....life is a-ok.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
These are actual comments that have been spoken around our house.
Our house full of boys.
"Honey, please get your penis off of my counter"
"Go put some underwear on, I don't want your penis on my chairs"
"Guys, we only play with our own penis', don't touch anybody's penis but your own"
"Please don't spray water at your brothers penis"
"Stop sticking your penis' out at each other"
"Hold on to your penis honey"
"push your penis down buddy"
"eeewwww poo poo." "no honey that's a penis." "ewwwww poo poo penis."
"look, he's stretching his penis"
"buddy, please don't grab your penis, it has poop on it"
"ouch, my penis ah stuck in my pants (zipper)" "well honey, you need to have your underwear pulled up before you do your pants up"
Cameron is doing better. He has gone poop in the toilet a couple of times (PROOOOOGRESSSSS)
and he went potty at the doctors office.
We still put them both in pull ups at night.
Spencer is doing marvelous. That kid will go any and everywhere. even in a snow bank at the sled hill in the parking lot (not pictured :)
Our house full of boys.
"Honey, please get your penis off of my counter"
"Go put some underwear on, I don't want your penis on my chairs"
"Guys, we only play with our own penis', don't touch anybody's penis but your own"
"Please don't spray water at your brothers penis"
"Stop sticking your penis' out at each other"
"Hold on to your penis honey"
"push your penis down buddy"
"eeewwww poo poo." "no honey that's a penis." "ewwwww poo poo penis."
"look, he's stretching his penis"
"buddy, please don't grab your penis, it has poop on it"
"ouch, my penis ah stuck in my pants (zipper)" "well honey, you need to have your underwear pulled up before you do your pants up"
Cameron is doing better. He has gone poop in the toilet a couple of times (PROOOOOGRESSSSS)
and he went potty at the doctors office.
We still put them both in pull ups at night.
Spencer is doing marvelous. That kid will go any and everywhere. even in a snow bank at the sled hill in the parking lot (not pictured :)
We found that you go much faster if you go together
Yip, that fast.
Whew, tough...Lay here....get pulled up....go down...lay here get pulled up and so on and so on.
The group. minus Steph and Kennedy.
OOW-T
Saturday, January 16, 2010
It's all in my head !
Thank you to everyone who commented about PMS. It seems that we have quite a few silent sufferers.
I did want to add....and I'm going to be talking for my inside voice. I don't share this with strangers because frankly....it sounds crazy when I say it out loud...and I don't think it's as bad, I suppose I feel like I have a handle on it....but I will just put it out there.
It's not that I just have a hard time controlling my temper. I have urges and thoughts of hurting my children and myself. Not to death or anything like that. But I do think of things like....if I drive the truck into a pole, how fast do I need to be going in order to do the least amount of damage to the truck (It's J's baby) and not kill or cause brain damage to myself. Just an injury that would put me in the hospital for 3 or 4 days.
I also think stuff like this for instance....I was trying to get everyone dressed and put their shoes on so that I could get Syd to gymnastics and the boys to preschool.
NOBODY was listening....which is typical and I get super frustrated and mad and yell really loud sometimes but during "the week". this week. I sat putting the shoes on the babies. Threatening Spencer who was running laps from room to room naked as a jaybird, urging Syd to HURRY, WE ARE GOING TO BE LATE and still calling for Cam to come here. I was able to catch Spencer and helped him get himself ready. Cam was last. I screamed SO many times for that kid. He was hiding under the kitchen table with one of the babies binky's. I knew he was there and even said, "Cam. I know you have the binky under the table. just come here so we can get you dressed." Still nothing. Counted. 1-2-3. and as I was finishing up with Spencer....these are the thoughts that go through my mind......I'm going to go in there and pull him out from under that table so hard that he hits his head on the table and gets hurt. Then he'll cry and it will make me feel better. Plus, it's not like I hit him....he just inadvertently hit his head on the way out. He can't blame me...right ...he was the one who didn't come out on his own ? and I can say...sorry buddy. I'm sorry YOU hit YOUR head on the table.
SERIOUSLY !
Now I didn't do it. and I have never hurt my children. But it's as if there is this hot blood that runs deep under my skin that makes me think that I could do something to hurt them.
When they do run and hit there heads on counter tops and doors on the hard days....I find pleasure in hearing them cry sometimes. Like, ya bastard, you deserved it....it's called Aunt Karma. I don't spank them so when they hurt themselves, it satisfies this raging fire I have burning inside.
In fact, several times when I want to beat the shit out of the kids, I turn and beat my own head. I've pulled at my hair, I will cover my face and dig my nails into my head, I've punched the sides of my legs. I have clenched my hands together and dug my nails into my hands. It's as if I'm SO DAMN MAD that I just have to get it out.
THIS is not normal. I know, because I've come through the fog and I know what is normal and what is right on the edge of crazy.
and you know what ? I feel ABSOLUTELY crazy. Mad crazy some days. I am absolutely not myself.
This is all in my head. I do not terrorize my children....it's more like I'm silently going through it. Well except when my temper flies and I'm yelling at the kids for EVERYTHING. but I have been able to hold it together. I suppose, like the post partum....I just always wonder.....what does it take to snap. Do I have it in me to snap too. That's what scares me into letting my inner demons out for all of you to see.
Sooooooo. I'm off to find out what my doctor thinks she can do for me. I haven't made the appointment yet. I'm hoping Aunt Flo will visit in the next couple of days. aaaaah. relief. just a.couple.days. away.
I will let you know what the doctor says.
I did want to add....and I'm going to be talking for my inside voice. I don't share this with strangers because frankly....it sounds crazy when I say it out loud...and I don't think it's as bad, I suppose I feel like I have a handle on it....but I will just put it out there.
It's not that I just have a hard time controlling my temper. I have urges and thoughts of hurting my children and myself. Not to death or anything like that. But I do think of things like....if I drive the truck into a pole, how fast do I need to be going in order to do the least amount of damage to the truck (It's J's baby) and not kill or cause brain damage to myself. Just an injury that would put me in the hospital for 3 or 4 days.
I also think stuff like this for instance....I was trying to get everyone dressed and put their shoes on so that I could get Syd to gymnastics and the boys to preschool.
NOBODY was listening....which is typical and I get super frustrated and mad and yell really loud sometimes but during "the week". this week. I sat putting the shoes on the babies. Threatening Spencer who was running laps from room to room naked as a jaybird, urging Syd to HURRY, WE ARE GOING TO BE LATE and still calling for Cam to come here. I was able to catch Spencer and helped him get himself ready. Cam was last. I screamed SO many times for that kid. He was hiding under the kitchen table with one of the babies binky's. I knew he was there and even said, "Cam. I know you have the binky under the table. just come here so we can get you dressed." Still nothing. Counted. 1-2-3. and as I was finishing up with Spencer....these are the thoughts that go through my mind......I'm going to go in there and pull him out from under that table so hard that he hits his head on the table and gets hurt. Then he'll cry and it will make me feel better. Plus, it's not like I hit him....he just inadvertently hit his head on the way out. He can't blame me...right ...he was the one who didn't come out on his own ? and I can say...sorry buddy. I'm sorry YOU hit YOUR head on the table.
SERIOUSLY !
Now I didn't do it. and I have never hurt my children. But it's as if there is this hot blood that runs deep under my skin that makes me think that I could do something to hurt them.
When they do run and hit there heads on counter tops and doors on the hard days....I find pleasure in hearing them cry sometimes. Like, ya bastard, you deserved it....it's called Aunt Karma. I don't spank them so when they hurt themselves, it satisfies this raging fire I have burning inside.
In fact, several times when I want to beat the shit out of the kids, I turn and beat my own head. I've pulled at my hair, I will cover my face and dig my nails into my head, I've punched the sides of my legs. I have clenched my hands together and dug my nails into my hands. It's as if I'm SO DAMN MAD that I just have to get it out.
THIS is not normal. I know, because I've come through the fog and I know what is normal and what is right on the edge of crazy.
and you know what ? I feel ABSOLUTELY crazy. Mad crazy some days. I am absolutely not myself.
This is all in my head. I do not terrorize my children....it's more like I'm silently going through it. Well except when my temper flies and I'm yelling at the kids for EVERYTHING. but I have been able to hold it together. I suppose, like the post partum....I just always wonder.....what does it take to snap. Do I have it in me to snap too. That's what scares me into letting my inner demons out for all of you to see.
Sooooooo. I'm off to find out what my doctor thinks she can do for me. I haven't made the appointment yet. I'm hoping Aunt Flo will visit in the next couple of days. aaaaah. relief. just a.couple.days. away.
I will let you know what the doctor says.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Anyone suffer from severe PMS ? And I'm not talking, irritability coupled with a chocolate itch.
I'm talking barely make it through the week....not yourself.....scary.
It seems reminiscent of post partum. I know that seems silly but it's as if I fall in to a brutal depression a week before my period.
It's been just since the last set were born. I have zero patience. EVERYTHING sets me off. I can't handle the most simple of situations. Some days I can barely utter any words at all, let alone kind ones.
I have it down to the week before my period. and there is such a relief when I wipe pink after using the restroom. It reassures me that there is a reason for my insanity and also an end to the torment. Life returns back to a normal hormonal on my period for the next 2 weeks (I am super lucky and get a heavy for a week period and then a nice week of spotting for a week, I've heard this is very normal after having babies)
If you have experienced this. Maybe you know someone who suffers. Any ideas or thoughts as to what can be done to remedy it. You see, I'm STILL taking the Zol0ft...so prescribing an antidepressant wouldn't be the answer. It's as if the Zol0ft stops working that week. this week. ugh.
Any takers ?
I'm talking barely make it through the week....not yourself.....scary.
It seems reminiscent of post partum. I know that seems silly but it's as if I fall in to a brutal depression a week before my period.
It's been just since the last set were born. I have zero patience. EVERYTHING sets me off. I can't handle the most simple of situations. Some days I can barely utter any words at all, let alone kind ones.
I have it down to the week before my period. and there is such a relief when I wipe pink after using the restroom. It reassures me that there is a reason for my insanity and also an end to the torment. Life returns back to a normal hormonal on my period for the next 2 weeks (I am super lucky and get a heavy for a week period and then a nice week of spotting for a week, I've heard this is very normal after having babies)
If you have experienced this. Maybe you know someone who suffers. Any ideas or thoughts as to what can be done to remedy it. You see, I'm STILL taking the Zol0ft...so prescribing an antidepressant wouldn't be the answer. It's as if the Zol0ft stops working that week. this week. ugh.
Any takers ?
Monday, January 11, 2010
More Movies Monday
I hope you are all caught up with the lezy movies I've been listing and rating...ALL FOR YOU. I don't sit and watch these for myself. NO. I do it for the better of my blogger buddies. jeesh !
Ok. so like I said before. We are at the bottom of the barrel here. Pretty much if the word gay is used in a movie, it's on my list and I watch it. ugh.
Here are a few recently watched.
Lost and Delirious. A story about a very naive girl (Mischa Barton) who is sent to boarding school. She of course gets a room assignment with 2 of the schools craziest girls. (Piper Perabo being one of them)
The two crazy girls are in a relationship with one another. Mischa's character becomes friends with the girls.
The one crazy is caught in bed with the other crazy and the threat to be outed pulls her away. Piper freaks and.....I won't give away the ending.
My review : considering I was at the bottom of the bucket, this one was ok. I think it was situationally realistic and the girls are cute. :)
(now please don't ask me..."where have you been ?" with this one)
Iris. This was one that I'd heard about when it came out but never got around to watching it. There was one scene in which the young Iris (Kate Winslet) didn't confirm or deny being gay. That's it for the gay scenes. :)
BUT, for those who haven't seen this movie. It really is a great story about dementia. I believe both Judi Dench (old Iris) and Kate Winslet were nominated for Oscars for this movie. I can see why. GREAT acting.
Kate floats around naked in a lake a bunch in this movie. Maybe that's why they listed it under the gay movies. a little tits and ass for the lesbian crowd. whatever.
My review : I really enjoyed this movie. Judi Dench and Kate Winslet rocked their roles. Sweet and tragic story.
Red is the Color of. Movie about a couple, both artists, who seem to have a very strong and loving relationship until the husbands sexy nude model comes between them.
She comes on to the wife. and the husband. (thus the lesbian tag. oh wait...maybe it's because you see the nude model...I don't know)
Nothing happens with the wife and the girl. Something happens between the husband and the model. the end.
My review : again, if you are going to watch them all. It wasn't terrible...it just wasn't good.
Next are a few of the movies that I watched because they were my only link to lesbians when I came out. The only thing I had to relate to them. Other than driving to the gay bars and sitting in the parking lot with my girlfriend so that we could watch the lesbians coming out of the bar to see what a lesbian looked like :) We seriously did this.
Claire of the moon. Oh bless it. I LOVE this movie. It is poorly written. there is bad acting. but there is something so great about the story that keeps it as one deer and near to my heart.
My review : how can you call yourself a lesbian and not have seen Claire of the Moon. Go out right now and watch it. Or I'll pull your card. :)
When night is Falling. GREAT movie. Good acting. The lesbian looks like a black Angelina to me a little. HOT. and with this whole dark circus thing...how could you go wrong.
My review : how can you call yourself a lesbian and not own this movie. Go out and buy it right now or I'll pull your card. :)
Desert Hearts. Stars Helen Shaver.....and I have to say I STILL have a crush on her after this movie.
Audra Lindley is also in this movie. Remember her from Three's Company. Takes place in 1950's when a professor, Vivian (Helen) goes to a ranch in Nevada to get a divorce. The ranch owners daughter is a lesbian and soon wins her friendship and more.
My review : super great movie. huge crush on Helen Shaver and her pant suits in this movie.
The incredibly True Adventure of 2 girls in love. Great movie about 2 high school friends, from two very different backgrounds, who find love. SO cute. One of the reasons I chose not to believe that Laurel Holloman (from the L-word) is straight today. She plays little butch girl REALLY good.
My review : Buy this movie. so cute.
Better than Chocolate. A story about a girl who's mother (Wendy Crewson) and brother move in with her hours after she meets the woman of her dreams. They don't know she's gay though and only more drama unfolds through the little town they live in. with a transgender falling in love with the lesbian bookstore owner and the men who blow it up.
My review : Buy this movie. great movie.
I hope I have been of some service to you with the listing and reviewing of these films. Please feel free to list any that you recommend that I may not have seen. Sometimes walking blindly in to these movies isn't always fun.
P.S. If you haven't already gone to see It's Complicated go now. no really. go ! now !
and then lets poke some smot and talk about it.
Ok. so like I said before. We are at the bottom of the barrel here. Pretty much if the word gay is used in a movie, it's on my list and I watch it. ugh.
Here are a few recently watched.
Lost and Delirious. A story about a very naive girl (Mischa Barton) who is sent to boarding school. She of course gets a room assignment with 2 of the schools craziest girls. (Piper Perabo being one of them)
The two crazy girls are in a relationship with one another. Mischa's character becomes friends with the girls.
The one crazy is caught in bed with the other crazy and the threat to be outed pulls her away. Piper freaks and.....I won't give away the ending.
My review : considering I was at the bottom of the bucket, this one was ok. I think it was situationally realistic and the girls are cute. :)
(now please don't ask me..."where have you been ?" with this one)
Iris. This was one that I'd heard about when it came out but never got around to watching it. There was one scene in which the young Iris (Kate Winslet) didn't confirm or deny being gay. That's it for the gay scenes. :)
BUT, for those who haven't seen this movie. It really is a great story about dementia. I believe both Judi Dench (old Iris) and Kate Winslet were nominated for Oscars for this movie. I can see why. GREAT acting.
Kate floats around naked in a lake a bunch in this movie. Maybe that's why they listed it under the gay movies. a little tits and ass for the lesbian crowd. whatever.
My review : I really enjoyed this movie. Judi Dench and Kate Winslet rocked their roles. Sweet and tragic story.
Red is the Color of. Movie about a couple, both artists, who seem to have a very strong and loving relationship until the husbands sexy nude model comes between them.
She comes on to the wife. and the husband. (thus the lesbian tag. oh wait...maybe it's because you see the nude model...I don't know)
Nothing happens with the wife and the girl. Something happens between the husband and the model. the end.
My review : again, if you are going to watch them all. It wasn't terrible...it just wasn't good.
Next are a few of the movies that I watched because they were my only link to lesbians when I came out. The only thing I had to relate to them. Other than driving to the gay bars and sitting in the parking lot with my girlfriend so that we could watch the lesbians coming out of the bar to see what a lesbian looked like :) We seriously did this.
Claire of the moon. Oh bless it. I LOVE this movie. It is poorly written. there is bad acting. but there is something so great about the story that keeps it as one deer and near to my heart.
My review : how can you call yourself a lesbian and not have seen Claire of the Moon. Go out right now and watch it. Or I'll pull your card. :)
When night is Falling. GREAT movie. Good acting. The lesbian looks like a black Angelina to me a little. HOT. and with this whole dark circus thing...how could you go wrong.
My review : how can you call yourself a lesbian and not own this movie. Go out and buy it right now or I'll pull your card. :)
Desert Hearts. Stars Helen Shaver.....and I have to say I STILL have a crush on her after this movie.
Audra Lindley is also in this movie. Remember her from Three's Company. Takes place in 1950's when a professor, Vivian (Helen) goes to a ranch in Nevada to get a divorce. The ranch owners daughter is a lesbian and soon wins her friendship and more.
My review : super great movie. huge crush on Helen Shaver and her pant suits in this movie.
The incredibly True Adventure of 2 girls in love. Great movie about 2 high school friends, from two very different backgrounds, who find love. SO cute. One of the reasons I chose not to believe that Laurel Holloman (from the L-word) is straight today. She plays little butch girl REALLY good.
My review : Buy this movie. so cute.
Better than Chocolate. A story about a girl who's mother (Wendy Crewson) and brother move in with her hours after she meets the woman of her dreams. They don't know she's gay though and only more drama unfolds through the little town they live in. with a transgender falling in love with the lesbian bookstore owner and the men who blow it up.
My review : Buy this movie. great movie.
I hope I have been of some service to you with the listing and reviewing of these films. Please feel free to list any that you recommend that I may not have seen. Sometimes walking blindly in to these movies isn't always fun.
P.S. If you haven't already gone to see It's Complicated go now. no really. go ! now !
and then lets poke some smot and talk about it.
Friday, January 8, 2010
What I know today.
-That mixing playdough and fish crackers doesn't work. Not EVEN if your intention was to give them something other than the playdough to eat.
-That a little boy who throws a MAJOR tantrum the night before....will most likely wake up with a tempurature in the morning. (which follows the pattern, back to school on Tuesday...sick by Friday)
-and, and, and...even if he's disrupting reading time with his screaming. It's best not to close the doors so that the others can enjoy the books, leaving said toddler alone, in the kitchen, with sissors. He WILL make little cuts in his jammies because he's pissed off. Oh yes he did.
-That the Wii fit plus is WAY more fun than the regular Wii fit. mainly the obstacle course and skateboarding.
-That if you make a new rule, each individual child will make sure the others are following it. and will IMMEDIATELY let you know if they aren't.
(this also applies to old rules)
-That I have failed miserably at any and all of my New Years resolutions already. I think I've showered 2 times. we've eaten take-out 3 times, I've actually gained weight and I've yet to work with the boys on their letters and sounds.
-Finally...that it's easier to sit here and type than it is to clean up breakfast and interact with my children.
-That mixing playdough and fish crackers doesn't work. Not EVEN if your intention was to give them something other than the playdough to eat.
-That a little boy who throws a MAJOR tantrum the night before....will most likely wake up with a tempurature in the morning. (which follows the pattern, back to school on Tuesday...sick by Friday)
-and, and, and...even if he's disrupting reading time with his screaming. It's best not to close the doors so that the others can enjoy the books, leaving said toddler alone, in the kitchen, with sissors. He WILL make little cuts in his jammies because he's pissed off. Oh yes he did.
-That the Wii fit plus is WAY more fun than the regular Wii fit. mainly the obstacle course and skateboarding.
-That if you make a new rule, each individual child will make sure the others are following it. and will IMMEDIATELY let you know if they aren't.
(this also applies to old rules)
-That I have failed miserably at any and all of my New Years resolutions already. I think I've showered 2 times. we've eaten take-out 3 times, I've actually gained weight and I've yet to work with the boys on their letters and sounds.
-Finally...that it's easier to sit here and type than it is to clean up breakfast and interact with my children.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Potty trained ?
What's happened thus far.
Spencer. totally potty trained. He goes at school, the store. He poops in the potty like a champ. We still put a pull up on him at night. Sometimes he wakes up dry (yesterday) sometimes not so much (today)
Cameron. he kind of back tracked on us. For a couple of days he was having accidents. It seems the novelty of going potty on the toilet was over. We've had to remind him and he'll go. He didn't go at school but came home dry.
He won't poop in the potty. I caught him pushing last night during books and immediately rushed him to the potty. He did one little poop in the potty. YEAH ! I knew there was more but after pushing and pushing and pushing I agreed to let him come back if he needed to finish.He and Spencer went and laid down for bed and I went to read with Syd. A few minutes later Spencer ran to the bathroom, pooped and called for me. As I tucked him back in to bed, I realized in the dark room that Cam was no where to be found. Well I did find him. downstairs, with the last of the little guys in his pullup. He went down, filled his pants and started playing with this train.
ugh !
It's coming though. He's doing great.
I remember washing cloth diapers out in the toilet when I was young. HOW I did that as a teenager with someone else's kid in their, who knows if it was cleaned regularly, toilet...I have no idea. Scrubbing poopy underwear off in our toilet made me gag. huuuuoooy huuuoy !
Cam still sits and tries to hold his pen!s down but it gets away from him sometimes and the pee streams between the seat and the toilet and soaks his underwear and pants. (sigh) Spencer stands and aims (he doesn't pee everywhere like people said he would. He holds it pretty steady and doesn't seem to get distracted too much)
For this picture Spencer was already going and Cam needed to go too. I suggested as I pulled his pants down and pushed him forward, that Cam should stand with Spence. I then RAN for my camera. They were both finishing up and the picture isn't the greatest of quality....but they did go together. So cute.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I'm on the, TOP of the world, BABY !
Syd got a karaoke machine for Christmas.
'I' got a karaoke Karen Carpenter greatest hits CD for Christmas. oh mah gootness !
We've all had a really good time singing. Here are a couple video's highlighting some of these performances.
Nathan is showing off more than his singing abilities here.
Right before the camera went on, Ryan was pushed away for getting to close to Nathan's microphone. We had him apologize and then decided to get a few more words out of him. He did go along with it for a while.
There was 8 minutes of him singing...and several minutes of him bobbing his head from side to side. SUPER STINKING CUTE ! We caught some right at the end of this video, but you just don't really get the full effect.
It was either - show you all 8 minutes (which we would have had to charge you for) show you the cute head bob and screaming in to the microphone for 2 minutes. or a combination, documenting only some of the words he knows at 18 months old.
Without further ado. NATHAN !!!!!
Cam, who normally doesn't like to participate in these kind of things, but absolutely tickles me pink when he does it on his own, actually performed today. for the camera. and when we asked him to. (thump. jaw hit the floor)
He was singing a little bit of Carpenters "Sing" (without the music) and a little "song by Cameron". Such a sweet little voice :)
CAMERON !
'I' got a karaoke Karen Carpenter greatest hits CD for Christmas. oh mah gootness !
We've all had a really good time singing. Here are a couple video's highlighting some of these performances.
Nathan is showing off more than his singing abilities here.
Right before the camera went on, Ryan was pushed away for getting to close to Nathan's microphone. We had him apologize and then decided to get a few more words out of him. He did go along with it for a while.
There was 8 minutes of him singing...and several minutes of him bobbing his head from side to side. SUPER STINKING CUTE ! We caught some right at the end of this video, but you just don't really get the full effect.
It was either - show you all 8 minutes (which we would have had to charge you for) show you the cute head bob and screaming in to the microphone for 2 minutes. or a combination, documenting only some of the words he knows at 18 months old.
Without further ado. NATHAN !!!!!
Cam, who normally doesn't like to participate in these kind of things, but absolutely tickles me pink when he does it on his own, actually performed today. for the camera. and when we asked him to. (thump. jaw hit the floor)
He was singing a little bit of Carpenters "Sing" (without the music) and a little "song by Cameron". Such a sweet little voice :)
CAMERON !
Friday, January 1, 2010
The facts of 2009 !
You take the good you take the bad you take em both and there you had 2009 ! 2009 !
There's a time you gotta go and show you're growin' now you're ready for twenty ten, for twenty ten.
When the world never seems to be livin' up to your dreams, and suddenly you're findin out 2009 is gone without you, you.
It takes a lot to get it right, but the future sure is lookin bright. The future sure is lookin bright.
My goals for twenty ten. I don't think I'll ever say two thousand ten...I like twenty ten much better.
-Be more positive. I have created bad habits through self preservation. If someone teased me or made a bad joke at my expense I found that jumping the gun or going along with the negative comment was the best way to get the person to stop. It's not fun to tease someone who isn't bothered or surprised by the tactic.
I was super sensitive and this helped me growing up. Now I really don't care.
Thing is, I do this with my children. I will be the first to focus on their negative behavior, faults....even possible weaknesses.
I wanted the people around me to know that I recognized this in my children. That they didn't need to be concerned for my ignorance or lack of trying. That I was well aware of the problem and was not happy about it either.
Sick right ?
I don't want to be that kind of a mother. I want to be the mom who sees no faults in her children. Whether I recognize them or not....they are perfect in my eyes. And they are. perfect. (see how well I'm doing already)
On that same line : Judge not yet ye be judged.
I always feel SO judged by what others think of my family. My kids.
I find myself getting so worked up about what I THINK others are thinking about how my children are behaving. It has ruined so many experiences that I could have relaxed and enjoyed more.
I have to realize that all kids are different and mine are more spirited at times. They are learning and growing and if I stay consistent and show a good example....they will grow up to be loving and caring people.
There is good and there is bad but life is what we choose it to be. If I choose to focus on the good...life is good...or at least better.
The long run. This year will be working on chores and lists and preparing. Staying ahead of the game always makes life easier in the long run.
I will try to give us much thought and attention to my boys learning as I was with Syd.
I know what you are thinking. oh gawd. with no bitching what will you ever have to blog about.
This blog will be my outlet. My quiet place to put down all of the things that I can't say out loud.
and also a place to keep track of the funny stories in my life. Like the one where Syd performed a C-section on her brother with his jigsaw. She had his legs up ready for him to push and then reached through, told him "this is gonna hurt real bad buddy....are you ready" and quickly pulled the saw across his stomach and said, "look....it's your newborn baby." presenting him with Ryan who proceeded to slap Spencer on the belly, giggle and run away.
These things need to be remembered. because in 20 years I won't remember if my own children were born C-section let alone the funny shit they said and did in twenty ten.
Then of course is the goal to eat healthier, shower more often, exercise....get my boys to eat fruits and vegetables and end global warming.
Here's to twenty ten !
There's a time you gotta go and show you're growin' now you're ready for twenty ten, for twenty ten.
When the world never seems to be livin' up to your dreams, and suddenly you're findin out 2009 is gone without you, you.
It takes a lot to get it right, but the future sure is lookin bright. The future sure is lookin bright.
My goals for twenty ten. I don't think I'll ever say two thousand ten...I like twenty ten much better.
-Be more positive. I have created bad habits through self preservation. If someone teased me or made a bad joke at my expense I found that jumping the gun or going along with the negative comment was the best way to get the person to stop. It's not fun to tease someone who isn't bothered or surprised by the tactic.
I was super sensitive and this helped me growing up. Now I really don't care.
Thing is, I do this with my children. I will be the first to focus on their negative behavior, faults....even possible weaknesses.
I wanted the people around me to know that I recognized this in my children. That they didn't need to be concerned for my ignorance or lack of trying. That I was well aware of the problem and was not happy about it either.
Sick right ?
I don't want to be that kind of a mother. I want to be the mom who sees no faults in her children. Whether I recognize them or not....they are perfect in my eyes. And they are. perfect. (see how well I'm doing already)
On that same line : Judge not yet ye be judged.
I always feel SO judged by what others think of my family. My kids.
I find myself getting so worked up about what I THINK others are thinking about how my children are behaving. It has ruined so many experiences that I could have relaxed and enjoyed more.
I have to realize that all kids are different and mine are more spirited at times. They are learning and growing and if I stay consistent and show a good example....they will grow up to be loving and caring people.
There is good and there is bad but life is what we choose it to be. If I choose to focus on the good...life is good...or at least better.
The long run. This year will be working on chores and lists and preparing. Staying ahead of the game always makes life easier in the long run.
I will try to give us much thought and attention to my boys learning as I was with Syd.
I know what you are thinking. oh gawd. with no bitching what will you ever have to blog about.
This blog will be my outlet. My quiet place to put down all of the things that I can't say out loud.
and also a place to keep track of the funny stories in my life. Like the one where Syd performed a C-section on her brother with his jigsaw. She had his legs up ready for him to push and then reached through, told him "this is gonna hurt real bad buddy....are you ready" and quickly pulled the saw across his stomach and said, "look....it's your newborn baby." presenting him with Ryan who proceeded to slap Spencer on the belly, giggle and run away.
These things need to be remembered. because in 20 years I won't remember if my own children were born C-section let alone the funny shit they said and did in twenty ten.
Then of course is the goal to eat healthier, shower more often, exercise....get my boys to eat fruits and vegetables and end global warming.
Here's to twenty ten !
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