Night sweats.    Hot flashes.    increased PMS.   
Could I be in perimenopause ?

Am I really this old ?

Do you think they will still rip it out because I'm still spotting/bleeding nearly 3 weeks out of the month ?

One can dream can't they ?

I just can't imagine our house without tampons (well for a while any ways).   and of course our being able to have sex without getting pregnant ;-)   Oh how would it be.

My toilet has been running all morning.   I am not likely to go sticking my hands in there to figure out why and J doesn't get home until tomorrow.   ah shoooot.

I've been a single mom all week.   and it's been my PMDD week.  
We did pretty damn good I might say.
Other than the time I slapped my baby boys naked butts for choosing to strip their clothes off and procede to pee on my family room floor.  This after tearing apart their brothers train system (those are a real bitch to put together).   
But you know what.   we moved on.   

I don't want to say it all aloud or anything.   Announce it like it's all great and shit.   But it's getting easier during J's business trips.   Last year was still really hard.   This year....Not so bad.    If I mentally prepare myself for it.....5:30 pm comes and goes without triggering anxiety and an onset of depression.  :)   I do miss her while she's away though.  And I REALLY like sharing the responsibility with her.   and also running kids to dance and errands to the store, without taking everyone.   but.   I am so handling this.   
maybe it's my new aging mature self, or my nearly non producing ovaries.
Whatever it is.   I embrace you !